From the Womb to God!!

You came into my life for such a short period of time. Time for me to see you in an ultrasound and for me to hear your little heart beat for the first time. I carried you for fourteen weeks but never knew I lost you at twelve weeks until a routine checkup. Going to the dr expecting to hear your heart beat was all I was going for. When the dr couldn't get your heart beat with the doppler my heart sank. I sent out a quick prayer request hoping that your little butt was just being stubborn. Through two ultrasounds and a vaginal ultrasound, I learned that I lost you. My heart broke and the tears just kept flowing down my face. The miscarriage was a complete shock to me as I had no spotting and no bleeding so wasn't expecting this at all! I know everything happens for a reason and I try to understand why things happen but this was difficult for me.

You will always have a place in my heart and I know you are up with God looking down on me, your sister and your brother. The surgery then followed for you to be removed by a D&C. The D&C was quick but the recovery was hard cause as son as I got to the room with your grandma I couldn't stop the tears from falling. In my heart I know this was meant to be and you were meant to be a little angel with God!! I love you and will always wish I could've held you. Having you in my womb and talking to you, bonding with you to let go was even harder.

God sent you as a blessing for me to change the way my life was going and to keep me from ending up six feet under. The path I was going on and the person I was with wasn't suitable to bring another baby into this world. God has a way with getting us to go in the right direction and to make changes in our life. You saved not just me but your sister and brother!! Watch over us and protect us as I know you will!! Love you always!!!  MOM!!!

"Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood!"........Marie Curie